Human Pinball Machine…

{ June 23, 2010 @ 5:43 pm } · { Thoughts, Uncategorized }
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You’ve heard of the human computer and the human rubber band; but I have become the human pinball machine!  Turns out that all the abdominal pain I’ve been experiencing is probably due to my IUD being “lost in space” (imagine the deep voice echoing).  I went and had an ultrasound done yesterday after having some “issues.”  Well, my little friend was nowhere to be found.

So my Dr. sent me to the hospital for an xray…guess what? My little buddy was just floating somewhere in my pelvis!  I can see it now, bouncing off my organs like those pretty lights and bumpers on the inside of a pinball machine!

Needless to say, I will be having it surgically removed when we get back from vacation!  What a way to recover from vaca!

Taking Every Thought Captive…

{ June 21, 2010 @ 10:17 pm } · { Scripture, Thoughts, Uncategorized, Worship }
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“For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh, for the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but divinely powerful for the destruction of fortresses.  We are destroying speculations and every lofty thing raised up against the knowledge of God, and we aer taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ.” 2 Cor 10:3-5

As thoughts swirl in my head of what is to come and what could be, I am brought back to this verse…not by chance or coincidence, but by the Holy Spirit.  He is trying to teach me something. Yet, I believe it is something deeper than I am seeing at the moment.  Allow me to take you on the journey of discovering this truth with me.

So often I get caught up in what is happening in myflesh, that I do not realize it is like and iceburg…the flesh is just the tip I can see.  There is a battle I do not see and cannot touch.  (A battle I am glad to say has already been won! There is HOPE for tomorrow… PTL!!))  God is doing something big…what are you wanting to show me, Lord?  Let me have spiritual eyes to understand Your Word!

I must take every thought captive…as it enters my mind, before it writes itself on my heart…  Paul says we are destroying fortresses, not will, or hope to, but are. These fortresses satan builds seem huge to me! What are the “weapons” that I need to destroy this mighty wall?  (Of which I know is only imaginary, as Paul calls them speculations that are raised up against the knowledge of God.)

“Stand firm therefore…taking up the shield of faith…and the sword of the Spirit…pray at all times in the Spirit,” Eph 6:14-18.  For some reason, I don’t know why I always go to letting my mind race rather than submitting myself to the Father in prayer.  I KNOW He is fr me, I KNOW He already knows the outcome. Do I think that by worrying I can do anything about the situation?

God please forgive me for using you as an alternative, instead of the Answer.

I will write the rest of my journey later.  The Holy Spirit is taking me somewhere and I must go dwell in that place…no talking, no writing, no thinking…just being.  I know that there is something amazing in store, but I know that these things do not come but with great sacrifice.

Valentines Day 2010

{ February 14, 2010 @ 9:58 pm } · { Uncategorized }
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I go the most wonderful surprise today! My honey sent me a HUGE bouquet of flowers when I wasn’t expecting anything!!! Definitely made a deposit today!!

Thoughts for 2.14.10

{ February 14, 2010 @ 9:51 pm } · { Uncategorized }
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Tonight’s LIFE group was soooo wonderful.  I cannot grasp the concept of how God lets us be a part of His plan.  To think that 2 and a half years ago, Jason came home from Russia knowing God had called him to plant a church, and now to see the vision lived out leaves me speechless!  I still remember the day Jason shared with me the passage God gave him for LIFE church:

On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. “Teacher,” he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?” “What is written in the Law?” he replied. “How do you read it?”  He answered: ” ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’[c]; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’[d]”  “You have answered correctly,” Jesus replied. “Do this and you will live.”  Luke 10: 25-28

And I remember telling Jason that we would pack up all of our belongings and drive until HE said stop and plant our lives there.

So to go from a vision to hearing how people’s lives are being changed through LIFE Church gives me chills.  I am so humbled and blessed to be a part of HIS plan.  Sometimes I just don’t get how a perfect God would want to use us! But isn’t that the attraction to Him?  That He is so big and perfect, but that He loves us so much that not only did He sacrifice His only Son for us, but that He lets us see His glory revealed through life change!

“So I stand with hands held high and heart abandoned, in awe of the One who gave it all.

I’ll stand my soul Lord to You surrendered.  All I am is Yours!” 

I can’t wait for the rest of the ride!

Worship 2.7.10

{ February 7, 2010 @ 9:50 pm } · { Scripture, Worship }
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The more I experience true worship, the more I learn that it is less about the atmosphere the church, band, or pastor(s) create and more about the atmosphere I have created in my heart.  This morning’s worship gathering was amazing!  I think the biggest difference was that I had prepared my heart for worship.

You see, I’m reading a book called “Crazy Love” by Francis Chan (can I just stop and say that this book is life changing!!), and I was asked this week by the leader of the group I’m studying it in, “how would your prayer life and attitude change if you truly understood how big and holy God is?”  We studied 2 passages I could just NOT get out of my mind this week.  The first is Revelation 4, the second Psalm 139.

Revelation 4 is John’s account of seeing God in heaven.  To read his description of an indescribable God in finite human words is mind-boggling.  When I close my eyes and try to picture that scene, standing in front of His throne, I am speechless (Revelation Song is playing in my mind for this exercise). My best is just filthy rags in His awesome presence.  Just as I begin to feel so unworthy and small standing kneeling laying prostrate in front of the God of the universe…get that universe, the God that spoke the heavens into being!!… I look at Psalm 139.

This psalm is the one we all know that tells us that “you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made,” and “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.  See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”

But sandwiched between these two verses is one that has spoken to me so much this week: “How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!  How vast is the sum of them!”  Do you realize He has thoughts if me? Really, the God who created the Milky Way galaxy, has me in His thoughts and cares about the smallest details about me that they are too many to count!  It seemed as if God was singing a love song to me through this entire passage!

Many times in worship we feel that we are doing God a favor by showing up to worship Him.  This morning, I was so humbled by the thought of being able to come before the Most High, the Creator of the galaxies,He met us there in that old bus barn on Martha Berry Hwy, and allowed us the privilege of experiencing an intimate relationship with Him through worship.  I can’t wait until next week to gather together and corporately worship the King!  You better believe I’ll be preparing my heart this week!!

Pink Tails…

{ February 2, 2010 @ 10:42 pm } · { Children, Thoughts }
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As we were getting ready for school this morning, Elizabeth wanted me to put her hair in pig tails. I love doing the girls’ hair (when they’re not screaming and fighting me). And if you have 2 or more children, you probably have the “Pete and Repeat” syndrome at your house as well. 

Well, my sweet Alli (my 3-year-old) then asked for “pink tails” too! I love it when she says things like that.  I have to remember these funny things so I don’t go crazy changing diapers and wiping bottoms.  As excited as I will be to not be cleaning rear ends, I will truly miss the sweet innocence of Alli’s words.  It seems like the older we get, the more careful and safe we become not to say anything silly or stupid. Instead of yelling from the rooftops (or bathroom counter) “I want pink tails too!” we shy away, and fade into the background, afraid.

My encouragement for you today: be excited about your pink tails.  Go shout it from the roof top!

Hello world!

{ February 2, 2010 @ 7:25 pm } · { Uncategorized }
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Well…I am officially blogging!! I can’t believe I am doing this. No, really… if you know me, you probably can’t either.  But its true, no need to pinch yourself, you are not dreaming. 

I can’t promise to have the funniest, most intelligent, or thought provoking blog, but i do promise to always speak from my heart.  That is what I have been called to do, for it is the wellspring of life. 

A wise man said the other day (okay, so it was my husband, but, hey, he is very wise)…back to the story…he asked what step of ridiculous faith are you going to take to fulfill the LIFE God has called you to?  Well, this is it!  My thoughts out there for everyone to read.  I have felt for the past few weeks that God has been calling me to write. I wasn’t sure in what capacity that was, so this is my start. 

I hope you enjoy my thoughts, as ridiculous as they maybe sometimes.